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I’m no fool, mother nature

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I was chatting to my sister the other day about my thoughts about birth. It turns out that I already started erasing bad memories to replace them with good, positive ones. Nice little trick mother nature. Together with the fact that a woman is very fertile after giving birth, the baby is becoming cuter with every day, it could well end up being a reason to add another worm to this family. Very nicely played, really. But I am no fool!

That’s why I want to write about my experiences as frequently as time and life allow. It will be a big change for the direction of this blog, but it’s my space in the end and I want to share my experience with you and other mothers. It kind of feels awesome to suddenly belong to a completely new group of people. A new tribe.

There is definitely something in becoming a mother that makes me feel both very isolated (read: lives of other people seem very remote and totally different to my current life) and like I belong. Earlier on today I went for a walk with Marysia. ON MY OWN. It’s a big deal. We were strolling down from Bruntsfield towards Tollcross and another mum wearing her baby in a sling walked passed me. We looked at each other and she smiled. I smiled back and nodded. She knew. I don’t know if it was my slow gait, the bags under my eyes or the number of times I checked on Marysia as I walked, but she knew that I was new to being a mum and she offered me her smile. She welcomed me to the tribe and gave me a hug. Or at least it felt like that.

I walked on, stopped by the Polish bakery to get a doughnut for J and went straight home. The late winter wind was blowing right into my face and I found it refreshing. I didn’t mind the big droplets of rain landing on my face, wetting my eyelashes. At least today they were not my tears but rain. It was mother nature kissing a new mother and telling her all will be well.

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Nazywam się Małgosia Frej i piszę blog o życiu: moim i świata, który mnie otacza. Moje wpisy to głównie reportaże z podróży, przemyślenia na tematym które mnie poruszają oraz wycinki z mojego życia i pracy jako młody lekarz w Szkocji.

  • http://bosagory.blogspot.com/ Zu

    Tak jak bardzo lubię czytać wszystkie Twoje przemyślenia, tak najchętniej czytam te o medycynie/pracy lekarki i macierzyństwie, czyli o tematach w jakiś sposób odległych. Ale do rzeczy: nie wiem ile razy czytałam/słyszałam pełne wyłącznie zachwytów słowa matek nad początkowym okresem macierzyństwa, jedynie kilka gorzkich słów o nieprzespanych nocach, przy nich Twoje teksty wydają mi się jakoś bardziej prawdziwe. Pewnie tak jak piszesz, pewnie o wszystkim się z czasem zapomina, ale i tak bycie rodzicem musi być bardzo trudne, więc z całego serca – siły, zdrowia i gratulacje, bo chyba jeszcze nie gratulowałam. No i “all will be well” :-)